Turning the corner
I told my family today. Their hugs couldn't have come at a better time. My partner in life, the one I love so much tested positive too. What will happen to our relationship? I've lost so much already. I don't want to lose the best part of my life. But I know it's going to take time to work this out. I never wanted to hurt anyone. The guilt I feel is unbearable. My parents are by my side now. For the first time in months, I don't feel alone and I know my family loves me. Oh! I almost forgot. It's time for my pills. I don't want to throw-up again.
How to tell a loved one you have HIV
Learning to live with HIV
I really feel good today. My first support group meeting was last night. I am not alone after all. I am experiencing what so many others are feeling. It feels so good to talk to someone who truly understands what it's like to live with this disease. I have decided that live is exactly what I am going to do. It's so hard at times. There are times I just want to throw in the towel. But I'm not going to let this thing rule my life. I want to take charge of this disease. I'm going to win this fight. The pills are still sickening but seem to be getting better. I don't throw-up each time I take them and the diarrhea isn't so bad. I can and will live a long healthy life. I saw a woman today in the clinic. In her sixties I think. She was alone. She looked so sad. I sat down next to her and introduced myself. I know how alone she feels. She told me HIV never crossed her mind. It was the last thing she had to worry about; or though she thought. I took her hand in mine. No one should have to face HIV alone. It's too bad so many of us do.
HIV/AIDS in the over 50 population
Author's Note
HIV affects the whole person, physically and mentally. This piece is not about one person but is a compilation of so many who have fought the fight and continue to live and struggle with HIV and AIDS. I said I have learned from all of my HIV positive patients. I have learned to respect their fight and admire their resolve to win the battle.
